Reminiscing bout ma past!

All through ma life I wanted to grow up
just so I can meet adulthood and say "wassup?"
but now that i finally am twenty one,
I feel that my childhood was way more fun!

Waking up Monday, Eating heavy to overcome the blues,
not dieting and having a little juice
Getting on the, bus singing all the way,
not stuck in traffic without knowing what to say!

Waking up Tuesday, feeling a little better,
not thinking of my chick or what to get her
Wearing the uniform my mom washed and pressed,
not worrying about how good I dressed!

Waking up Wednesday, feeling my dad's care,
Not thinking its day 3 I'm halfway there
Looking into my mom's eyes as she kisses me goodbye,
not through my window at the landscape so dry!

Waking up Thursday, with so much energy in me pent,
not worrying about how the hell I'm gonna pay my rent
missing the bus and riding with mom to school
not caring about who thinks I am cool!

Waking up Friday, forget it again so scream for ma towel,
not running out half naked just to answer my doorbell
having the lunch my mom packed with love and care,
not munching on chips I bought with change I had to spare!

Waking up Saturday. late after my dad calls me a slob,
not worrying about recession or losing my job
Watching the tube for hours together with dad,
not stuck in an empty house which drives me mad!

Waking up Sunday, switching on the TV,
not worrying about how to update my CV
Going outside and playing in the sun,
not just waiting to get paid on day one!

But really... Being an adult ain't bad, I can vote,
I don't even have to bug dad to buy a new coat
I can smoke, I can drink,
I can do anything that I think!

But sometimes when I remember the past,
I feel I just grew up too fast
Reminiscing about the great times that we had...
I dedicate this one to ma DAD!!!

A Touch Of Reality

She does a number on me,
but now sez shes gonna let me be
She just wants me to walk away
...go off and start another day???

No Way!!! To me this aint a play!
So I just cant go another way
But she's made her decision she's spoken
Its all over ma heart's now broken!

She want one last kiss...
She wants me to hold her tight
Cant do it cuz somethings amiss
and am just fading into the night!

I know she cries, she's full of sorrow
but by the time she wakes up tomorrow
perception changes, Its me she'll blame
It won't matter that ma hearts been set aflame...

I say this cuz I know her way too well
I know there's no lite for me @ the end of ma tunnel
I know there's only one way outta this
ant thats for me to get a knife and slit ma wrists!

The blood drips all over da floor as I type this
Hallucinations!!! ma minds in a state of bliss!
I can see her now, We touch and we kiss...
Ma heart beats to tell me this is what am gonna miss

Its getting dark, ma mind ain't workin
The reaper's round da corner somewhere lurkin
Hey babe I just wanna tell you its not your mistake
I'm doing this cuz ma lyfs messed n this is ALL I CAN TAKE!!!!

The Dream Of A Lifetime / My Lifetime In A Dream

Back from dinner, I was riding...
On the road, In a flash, I saw a face hiding,
Was it her? I couldn't believe my eyes!
No, It couldn't be her... It shouldn't be her, my heart denies!

I raced back to take yet another look
Yes, it was her... hugging a book.
I walked up to my once-upon-a-time mistress...
to find that she was married, but yet a damsel in distress!

She was cold, standing there all alone...
A friend had ditched her, she was on her own...
In a strange land, with a tongue too new...
there wasn't a single soul who she knew

So, though she didn't like what I had to say...
She came with me as she had no where to stay!
I took her in and I marked the day,
that I started waking up to her face, everyday!

She was an angel, thats what she was
No wonder she was the one for my pain, the cause
I knew this wouldn't work, I knew all was lost...
But I just wanted to be next to her at any cost!

I knew she'd leave... Back to him she'd go...
But every time I thought of it my heart'd go "NO NO NO!!!"
I just wanted to be with her, as long as I can...
So hide my feelings I did and tried to be the man.

I tried to act nonchalant, just be a friend...
just be good, help her out... You know the trend...
But every second of every minute that I spent with her,
I kept falling in love, deeper and deeper!

Her lovely laugh, her simple smile,
just to see it made my life worthwhile!
her lush lips and oh that hip,
Man... what a feeling, That gal made me trip!

Every time someone saw her with me...
Every time someone thought she was mine...
My heart started beating faster and faster,
And I didnt know what I'd do if I ever lost her...

She was there for me as I was for her,
Hours raced in front of my eyes in a blur
Hours became days, days became months...
12 of them passed and Dday came at once!

For the past 12 months I'd dreaded that moment
She was gonna leave... The Pain... The Torment!
I gathered all my courage as I walked up to her...
To tell her of my love but couldn't bear to see her suffer.

I started " I L..." but went "I L... I'll miss you!"
She smiled knowingly but sadly as she bid adieu
As she turned to leave, I saw a sparkle... Was that a tear???
By then I couldn't tell cause she wasn't too near!

I think of her every moment... All the time,
... and I couldn't sleep so I started this rhyme!
Sometimes I think she loved me too...
But that'll be something that I never knew :'(

Incoherance - A Way Of Lyf

Why'd I wanna start with "An Empty Heart"?
Tats wat I'm askin meself rite now...
Whats gone wrong? Whats blown apart?
Why's everything so gloomy rite now?

Is an apology that important a matter?
Is there another life for the late? or even the later?
The old man's gone and I have big shoes to fill...
Do I kill or silently slip the pill?

My whole adult life, I've lived in denial
just refused to see that its all a mirage...
She's almost back but it all ain't too well
Im so drained... So outta charge!!!

The truth has been told, the denial denied...
I see its gotta end, It just can't go on...
However hard, Whoever tried...
I know nows the time to move on!!!

Its a lil too tough to forget, A lil too hard to let go
My hearts too broken bein filled with all this woe...
I think I'd just do a "Homer"
... n head straight to Moe's!!! :-)